P.S.  I mentioned that I have to have a direction.  I've realized recently how true that really is for me.  I'm a very creative person.  In my job and in my personal life, I innovate all the time.  I've moved up in my job because I can see systems well.  I recognize patterns and can identify trends.  This is one of my strengths.  But in BJJ, I don't, and it just really dawned on me yesterday that this was true.  I was sparring with Bing yesterday, and it's ridiculous how easy it is for him to move me around.  At one point, seeing that I was a little frustrated, he said, "Steve, you just have to keep moving."  I know!  But I didn't know where to move.  I didn't know whether moving one way or another would make things worse.   So, I just stopped.  Ultimately, something I need to figure out for myself is what's going to work best for me.  I have some questions I'm going to mull over, and maybe I'll have an answer some day.  Am I going to figure out how to bring my natural creativity into BJJ?  Is it possible to be mentally creative but not physically creative?  Or vice versa?  I see guys who apply no conscious thought to their game.  Of course, they study some technique, but when they roll, it's fluid and intuitive.  Is this something I need to learn or is it just something you either have or don't have?